Post by lathriel on Aug 6, 2009 11:43:18 GMT -5
Not all who wander are lost.
LATHRIEL
I'm wild and crazy and rebellious... but only once in a blue moon.
I've existed for almost 17 years now, after my crash-landing in '92, and after all this time I know only one thing to be true...
That nothing is fact expect the fact that nothing is fact.
Which also, in a small way, proves... EVERY RULE HAS AN EXCEPTION.
I haven't found the meaning of life that applies for everyone- but it seems to me living your life to the fullest makes for a nice hunk of warm and happy in your tummy. I still am double-guessing after all these years and no it doesn't help me out in end a majority of the time. I've had a rough time to be honest... living. It's probably the hardest thing we have to do in live because dying is just so much easier. But in life you are able to find joy, love, and warmth as well as misery, sorrow, pain, and suffering. You just have to stay alive long enough to find it.
I've gone on personal journeys of self-discovery, dreamed of a better life, and tried to follow the path I've made for myself.
I'm honest and straight forward, but I write in riddles. I'm semi-conservative hippie. I dream big, but take baby steps instead of leaps and bounds. I love the outdoors, but I'm confined in a tiny room. I have flaws and strengths. I am Alyson - C3PO, Squee, Lathriel, Et Cetra - and I am a complex contradiction and vaster than the expanse of the seas.
I will live. I will breathe. I will eat, drink, s**t, and eventually die. What else I will do is a mystery no matter what plans I've made for the future. What I shall try to do is a different story.
In a perfect world, I will gather knowledge endlessly, I will cut open the dead, and I will shoot people. I will love, I will create, I will relax, I will mediate, I will perform yoga, travel, meet new people, and make new friends. I will smoke; drink; f**k; and I will get beat, bitten, bound, and broken. I will be loved; I will belong; I will give my all; I will cherish all I hold dear; and I will always grow, improve myself, learn about myself and many another thing, and strive to be the ultimate philanthropist. I will believe in various bits of religions as an agnostic, reincarnate, and live again. I will be my perfect me.
I'm often stuck in the past, jamming good with David, John, Jimi, Bob, and Zeppelin. Dreaming of how life could of been for me back then and wishing I could of been there. So instead I waltz the streets a blast from the past regards of my birth date, my soul is old.
I despise blacklisting, anti-smoking legislature, synthetic drugs, my sperm donor, ignorance, people who DUI (I worry for them... it scares me.), and how people drift apart. I miss many people and have still to meet more. I hate feeling trapped, overwhelmed, and guilty. As such I try to live to be as honest I can be and avoid the judgmental crowd. I fear so much and I hate my fear. It's a handicap. Most of all though I hate being left behind. I feel abandoned... so please don't ever leave me.
The most predominate of all my traits and factoids is my unable to step down from the clouds. I'm a dreamer. I fall in love with fictional characters, make the impossible possible, and do the jitterbug down the rabbit hole gleefully. I love living in my head and creating new worlds to explore... which is why I love realms so much and why it has saddened me so that I've been stuck cleaning and taking care of my mother all summer. I mean, shizz happens, but it makes me sad to know that summer is almost over and I just now get to have some free time.
Momma... just killed a man...
Some of my favorite things include, but are not limited to:
-Ventures with friends, whether on foot or in a vehicle (preferably Late-night/Early-morning)
-Smells that make me smile like clove, old book smell, Nag Champa, Eternity, coffee, tea, Italian herbs, and Alex<3
-Books
-The Arts
-Photography
-My friends
-Cinema
-Theater
-Music
-Creation
-REPO
-RHPS
-Body Mods
-Horror Culture
-Rats
-Beauty
-Ann Arbor
-Denny's
-Dorky things, specifically D&D, Magic:The Gathering, Poke'mon, Zelda, Final Fantasy, comics, role-playing, coding, and anime
-This one boy... he's the cat's meow. I like him and he likes me. It's a new concept. His name is Alex Tomesek. *dopey grin*
-OH and I forgot! The L word! I love the L-word! *molests Katherine Moennig* And Firefly! But that's a given who doesn't?
