Post by inspectorjavs on Dec 5, 2008 17:08:24 GMT -5
Okay. Not gonna sugarcoat this. I’m quitting roleplaying permanently[/u] starting January 1st.
Now, some of you will probably be appalled and yell at me to stay, and some of you won’t care, and a lot of you won’t get why this is such an enormous deal to me since it’s just a game and all, but I’m not sure if I ever told any of you how seriously I’ve become addicted to roleplaying. In the past four years, my grades have went down, I’ve lost a ton of my friends (including most of my best ones) because I never hang out with them, I’ve distanced myself from my family and even my religion, I’ve lost sleep, I’ve had meltdowns, I’ve cried myself to sleep… and all because of roleplaying. This is weird. I know. I’m not proud of it. It’s starting to get really scary. What started off as just a fun way to improve my writing skills ended up as a really, really strange but huuuuuuge obsession.
I’ve methodically and repeatedly tried to distance myself from the Internet, but even when I succeed, I still think about roleplaying. I stay on the Internet as long as I can and manage to squeeze in a few extra minutes at 6 am before my bus comes for school. I’ve often gotten grounded because I stay on the Internet way past when I’m supposed to be offline, and I’ve argued and yelled and screamed at my parents over it. If someone’s addicted to something, you take it away from them… so I’m banning myself from roleplaying. It’s the only solution that I can think of. I miss having a real life, instead of living in a fantasy world, convinced that my characters are real people who are more important than I am.
This sucks, man. >___>
Anyway, I’m really, really, really, really, really, really, REALLY upset over this (I’m shaking as I type this, honestly, and I bawled like a baby when I made the decision to quit), but I have to do it. I’m going to miss you all a ton. I really do consider a lot of you to be genuine friends of mine. I’m literally blocking all of my forums, so I’ll never come and visit, but if you want to keep in touch, don’t hesitate to e-mail or MSN me at feartheninjas_x@yahoo.com; if you want my myspace, send me an e-mail and I’ll give it to you.
I’m really, really, really, really sorry, especially since I’m messing up plots and relationships between characters and stuff. This is too long. I’m sorry it sounds really melodramatic and sappy, but every single word is true. I’ll shut up now, anyway. Goodbye and good luck, dearhearts. (:
Love,
Javert
Now, some of you will probably be appalled and yell at me to stay, and some of you won’t care, and a lot of you won’t get why this is such an enormous deal to me since it’s just a game and all, but I’m not sure if I ever told any of you how seriously I’ve become addicted to roleplaying. In the past four years, my grades have went down, I’ve lost a ton of my friends (including most of my best ones) because I never hang out with them, I’ve distanced myself from my family and even my religion, I’ve lost sleep, I’ve had meltdowns, I’ve cried myself to sleep… and all because of roleplaying. This is weird. I know. I’m not proud of it. It’s starting to get really scary. What started off as just a fun way to improve my writing skills ended up as a really, really strange but huuuuuuge obsession.
I’ve methodically and repeatedly tried to distance myself from the Internet, but even when I succeed, I still think about roleplaying. I stay on the Internet as long as I can and manage to squeeze in a few extra minutes at 6 am before my bus comes for school. I’ve often gotten grounded because I stay on the Internet way past when I’m supposed to be offline, and I’ve argued and yelled and screamed at my parents over it. If someone’s addicted to something, you take it away from them… so I’m banning myself from roleplaying. It’s the only solution that I can think of. I miss having a real life, instead of living in a fantasy world, convinced that my characters are real people who are more important than I am.
This sucks, man. >___>
Anyway, I’m really, really, really, really, really, really, REALLY upset over this (I’m shaking as I type this, honestly, and I bawled like a baby when I made the decision to quit), but I have to do it. I’m going to miss you all a ton. I really do consider a lot of you to be genuine friends of mine. I’m literally blocking all of my forums, so I’ll never come and visit, but if you want to keep in touch, don’t hesitate to e-mail or MSN me at feartheninjas_x@yahoo.com; if you want my myspace, send me an e-mail and I’ll give it to you.
I’m really, really, really, really sorry, especially since I’m messing up plots and relationships between characters and stuff. This is too long. I’m sorry it sounds really melodramatic and sappy, but every single word is true. I’ll shut up now, anyway. Goodbye and good luck, dearhearts. (:
Love,
Javert
